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Life is beautiful!

Tue, 16 Nov 2004 19:59:09 GMT

I love my sorority!! Thank you girls for an amazing time this weekend! YAY for finally being sisters!
Thank you Big and Big^3...I couldnt have done it without you too...love ya!

And hell yes for Sigma pledge class...What is love...Baby dont hurt me...Our dance was rockin!!! Ill try to burn a few cds with it on it...and give it to ya'll!

Home in 2-3 days! ;)

YESSS!!!

Sun, 07 Nov 2004 22:19:23 GMT

We all made it through Finals night on Friday!!! Yipppiieee!!! We were all so nervous that day...but I think it turned out well and on Tuesday we will be activated and we will be offically sisters of Gamma Sigma Sigma!! WHoop whoop!
Saturday Ami, Anna and I went shopping for our Bigs and our Rosebuds...I am now offically poor! But it was all put to a good cause!
I also got to see AC Slater...aka Mario Lopez...ya know Saved by the Bell, yea I have pics...:) His body was perfect...I was sweating just listening to him talk about pointless shit. Ya I know Im a loser...but he is hot!
Today is Sunday...and I had an appointment with my English Professor at 11 to discuss how to revise my paper...ya that went well.
I started my ten page paper for developmental psychology today and Im not sure how Im going to get 10 pages out of it. Tonight is Big/Little night! And Im really excited to give my Big presents and stuff...I cant really divulge anymore information because its a surprise :)
Thats pretty much it...oh and next Saturday is formal...and we get to do our dance!! its gonna be pimping!

**And Ill be home in 12 days! WHOPPIE!!

Its circus time kids!

Wed, 03 Nov 2004 23:47:31 GMT

So I need a date. For formal...nov 13...must be male...applications accepted inside~ (leave me a message if you are interested...:)

So this week has been kinda stressful...and it started on a tuesday...besides having a test in every class except one, and two papers due, one of which being ten pages! This is also the last week of pledging for Gamma Sig...and Im really happy that pledging will be over, but the thing is that I have so much to do this week that I wish finals night was another friday...oh well. Our pledge class dance will kick ass!!! You wait!! hehe
Oh and on Saturday AC Slater is coming to Duq!!!!! OHHH man am I excited!!!
Sunday is circus time with the roomie, cause she has never been to one~I know its sad...and of course we are going to the best circus...Ringling Barnum Bailey Bros Circus!!!! WoooooPPPIIeeeeee!!!!! and Im making her go early just to meet the clowns in person!! Ya thats right I said it!!! hahaha..."You think Im kidding but Im not!" (well the circus plan is tenative until she deciedes if watching the Eagles vs. Steelers game is more important than the once in your life opportunity to watch the best show on earth!!...you love me roomie i know!!)

On a ranting note:
Why are boys so stupid sometimes...they think we are all hard to understand, no no my dear, boys are just as indecisive as girls if not more. They send mixed signals, they lie, they dont use their head (the larger one of the two), and they fall for floosy girls just for sex. Ill admit i can be floosy and sometimes dumb, but ya know I dont think that anyone deserves to be hung out to dry like yesterdays laundry. Boys waste so much time with stupid girls just for fun...when will they ever grow up and want something real or at least more real than the floosy gum chewing pig tail girl who puts out. Realize what is real..if its not too late.

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 22:57:14 GMT

So I haven't updated this thing in awhile...so i figured I would procrastinate alittle longer from doing homework...
Lets see, I am pledging Gamma Sigma Sigma a national service sorority. And I love it!! Especially my big and my tree!! They are so good to me!So I have been pretty busy with pledging and stuff..ya know!
Most recently things have been pretty good here...My roomate anna and I went to hang out with our roomates from last year on saturday night, and things got crazy because we went over to their neighbors house for a little gathering. Needless to say I was plastered within an hour and was dancing solo in the family room, and Ami had to cut me off and took my cup away!! It was outa love though so its all gravy baby!
Oh and just as I was putting my shoes on (i took them off so i could show my moves on the dance floor) well at least I was attempting to put my shoes on...this gorgeous guy came over and offered to let me hold on to him while I was attempting to put the heels back on, and of course I was like of course Ill hold on to you! Best body ever...he even had those muscles leading down to the lower area...yea those muscles...pretty damn hot! So then he keeps talking to me, and tells me that hes 23 and I thought I heard that he worked for the governement (but the jury is still out on that one). So anna comes over and tells me we need to go because Doug is driving us home and I invite this gorgeous creature to come back to my room...ya I was wasted, but I had seen him when I was sober and I knew he was perfect the minute I saw him...so after anna telling him it was ok that he came back with us cause she was my roomate, i think doug or ami told him no because we have no way of signing him in...so hes all touchy feely now with me and holding my hand and stuff and he pulls me real close and tells me to stay there with him for the night, and i was like ok sounds good. And then for some reason I was forced to leave (if i wouldnt have been so trashed I would have known to leave) he got my number and he kissed me on the cheek!!! Hottest most sexual attractive man that has ever been that close to my lips! Well lets think realistically chances of him calling that random drunk girl who is from saturday night is rather slim...but ya know what it was good to know that I can get a guy or at least have a guy want to get with me that was that fucking gorgeous!
Ok well the story telling is over...hope it was enjoyed by all, because I know we had a hella good time thanks to the former roomie taking us out!!!

Tue, 28 Sep 2004 16:56:35 GMT

So tonight is induction into gss and Im freakin out...we get out big tonight...and i just hope for a fun one and someone i get along witH!!!
Oh and of course its raining!!
Wish me luck!!!

Sun, 26 Sep 2004 23:34:29 GMT

So I have figured out relationships...i just had a lightbulb moment...
So whenever you are looking for a relationship you cant ever find the right one. Kinda like when you are shopping for a very simple item and you just cant find it. Finding a man seems rather simple and explanatory, but ya know its like that white camisole (Cough Cough Like this weekend girls) that is the most simple of things and seems almost mandatory for a store to have at all times, however the minute you need it, its not there. When I expect nothing I get everything and when I expect everything I get nothing. I need to learn to expcet nothing and just let life happen.

Well now I better go back to writing things that are important to my future!

Fri, 24 Sep 2004 19:52:27 GMT

Have you ever wondered how two people in a relationship can be at two totally different stages in the relationship? Whether it is something like commitment issues or whether or not the relationship is moving at your speed, or even maybe it is something like one person thinking that the relationship is one thing and the other person not knowing where that other person stands. Im a firm believer in just being in a relationship and not knowing what it is and just having fun. But I also believe that both parties must know what is expected and to what level the relationship may go...or in what direction...aka more serious...or just benefical friends. I dont know if it is just me being a girl, but when Im not sure where the person stands in a relationship (friendship,lover,fuck buddy,committment) I want to at least know or not go any farther or quit pursuing. I think I have been watching too much sex & the city...but really guys always think that they are on a different level than the girl...

Mon, 20 Sep 2004 03:10:56 GMT

***Disclaimer:I am not in a good mood...so if you think that something in here might pertain to you....well than dont read it:

So for the past few weeks I haven't been myself. At times I am and at other times I am not...which is obviously part of life. But really when I have nothing to be upset about...besides dealing with a few people...everything in my life seems rather perfect
I mean Im playing flagfootball, riding with Mr.grand Prix himself, party,rushing a sorority and have pretty cool people in my life...I guess maybe I just could miss home, or people from home. I dont know. I feel like I am being brought down. I need to get things off my chest, but i realize that this isnt the best place for that, seeing how it is public...

I think I just need something/someone, but Im not sure what...

Sat, 18 Sep 2004 18:18:47 GMT

Do you ever wonder who people are when they are just walking down the street. Kinda like what their life is when they are with loved ones or not walking on campus. Because its hard to think of people as being anyone else than from the world that you know them from. I mean each and every person has different environments that they are apart of, but sometimes I think that people forget that there is a home for everyone and it is soo different for each of us. In general just another life somewhere miles away, that is always there that has to be dealt with as well as where you are now. Im not saying we forget that we have a home, but it gets hard to be two different people in two different environments. I guess thats just the life that we live in college.

So here I am

Wed, 15 Sep 2004 03:58:24 GMT

So here I am sitting here in Pittsburgh...On this fine Tuesday night....
Lets see...I guess these journals are meant for updates, well I will generally fill ya'll in:
So I have classes, I ride and work for an amazing Grand Prix guy (and possibly going with him to Florida next semester), I do homework, and I study, and ohh yea sometimes we do that college thing called party ;)
This past weekend Erin, Sonya and I went over to CMU and partied with some frat boys...met a really nice one...danced the night away...and I am still feeling the aftermath of the party in my legs!
So we are all a tad obsessed with Sex...and the City! We watch at least 2 episodes a night...and I even have such an emotional attachment to them that I was a tad upset about Keri and Aiden breaking up...:(
Well back to studying psych (the downfall of life)...

Arrevederci amiche!

Mon, 13 Sep 2004 04:20:38 GMT

You are most like Samantha!
For you, dating is the ultimate sport
You're into guys with power, looks or a lot of money.
You rather have a great two weeks than a great forever.
But even you fall victim to love from time to time. :-)
Romantic Prediction: You will find love in the next few weeks..but you will be the last one to realize it.

***ummm ok Im taking votes...how many people think I am really like her...and if so in what way?

Fri, 03 Sep 2004 04:45:17 GMT

If your girl only knew,
That you was trying to get with me (what would she do)
If your girl only knew,
That you was dissin' her to talk to me
She...She would probably leave (probably leave) you alone (you alone)
She would probably curse you out and unplug her phone (heyyy)
I bet she'd be glad (oh yeah) that you was gone (you was gone)
And that she wouldn't have to worry (oohh)
If your girl only knew,
That I would want to kick it with you (if she knew)
And if your girl could only see,
How you be calling me, getting fresh with me
She probably...
She would probably leave (leave you) you alone (you alone)
She would probably curse you out and unplug her phone (unplug her phone)
I bet she'd be glad (she'll be glad) that you was gone (that you was gone)
And that she wouldn't have to worry (oohh)
She's crazy to put up with you (hey)
Oh boy I won't be no fool (won't be no fool)
Let you like what you see
It ain't easy to get with me (no baby)
If ain't gon' put up with you (with you...)
I won't be no fool (won't be no fool)
Let you like what you see
It ain't easy to get with me
If your girl only knew

Thu, 26 Aug 2004 04:47:10 GMT

So after the first few days...being back at school is ok...

I miss everyone back at home more than you know, especially the family. And I think about yall more than ya know.

So far being back at school has been pretty busy between school and just catchin up with ppl.
Tonight we went to the pirates diamondback game...it was a pretty good view from the cheap seats! 5 people fit in LOLA...yea thats right...so whenever yall say my car is too small ask keri, lori, erin or sonya!!! Good times!

So this weekend will just be barn related...maybe a few social gatherings, you know how it is ;)

Dont miss me too much in VA

Fri, 20 Aug 2004 18:12:43 GMT

So im packing...I think I have everything...but Im trying to think of everything...what could i have forgotten???

2 days left!

Thu, 19 Aug 2004 01:42:12 GMT

In case anyone cared...I was in Arizona for the past 6 days with the cousins and aunt and uncle. Yea that was a blast! I really wish we lived closer...being with family always feels right...I bonded with my 13 year old cousin-shes one cool girl and my other cousin rach is so fiesty I love it! she can deal with my brothers better than I can!! I already miss them! :(
Oh and on the plane back there was this amazing blonde US Naval academy man...he was beautiful!

So 2 days til I am back in the burgh...and I already have all my weekends and days planned out...looks like I wont be home til Thanksgiving...unless I make a surprise visit home ;)

Fri, 06 Aug 2004 21:46:20 GMT

So Heres your chance to eat my soul...tell me exactly what you think of me...it MUST MUST MUST be ANONYMOUS though! Tell me everything that you cant tell me in person...I mean we all know Im a nerd...so dont include that...but any hot foxy mama comments are good, or youve hated me since we first met...anything...give it to me baby~cold turkey...i can handle you!

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 03:59:49 GMT

sometimes all it takes is someone that knows you better than yourself, to bring you home.

And I havent been home for a month and a day

Thu, 05 Aug 2004 02:26:53 GMT

Im really confused about so many things, I dont even know where to begin...so im not even going to start....all I know for a fact right now is that I cant go back to school..

Mon, 02 Aug 2004 04:57:58 GMT

so after mad amount of overtime and soo much more to come this week...this chica is tired!!!
Oh and I got a ticket this weekend...on the damn border of loudoun and faifax...i ran a red light blatantly and then saw the camera lights flash, it was like a bad roller coaster ride!! Tim was with me and definetly made fun of me...ya know the car next to me looked like they were goin so i was like ok ill go, yea well they stopped and i flew threw.
Good thing my pops loves me cause he just laughed and said "way to throw away 50 bucks!"
Oh well...so I really dont want to go back to school...I would do anything to not go...really...sigh...damnit!

Sun, 01 Aug 2004 00:02:43 GMT

This is so the feeling now....

I've been waiting all my life.
To finally find you,
Just so I can push you away.
And when youre crawlin on broken glass to get to me
Thats when Ill let you stay

Oh, here I am. As perfect as I'm ever gonna be. You'll see.
Love me for me
Stick around,
Im not the kind of girl you want to leave
You'll see
Love me for me

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**Sidenote....apparently when your with one of your best girls and say we when discussing things that means there is some lesbian action there...ohh man~men never mature 35 or 19...

Thu, 29 Jul 2004 00:01:13 GMT

When Im 45 will things be the same as they are now..

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Mon, 26 Jul 2004 04:03:53 GMT

Have you ever felt like the life you were about to jump into is something totally wrong for you? I feel that if I go back to school the life will be completly sucked out of me. One of my biggest fears is that I just dont have the patience to deal with the things that I once was able to deal with without a shrug of the shoulder. My body just isnt as strong as it used to be. And I dont know if it is because I got a backbone, but as much as I am entirely grateful for me finding a backbone, im not sure it will be to my benefit. I has always said that when I went to college, that I was going to go and succeed at anyones cost. This was the time for me to knock people out of my way, just like people have done my whole life. I know that this is not a good attitude to have, and thats not necessarily the one that I have, but it is more along the lines that I am going to school to better myself and if that means that I cant be everyones friend along the way, then so be it. I guess after everyhting that has happened this year, and I mean everything, I have come to know what really matters and I dont want to make time in my day for things that really dont matter to me. Because in the end it the important things not the pettiness of others.
I have also been thinking on whether or not I would come back to NDA for our 5 year reunion. And as of this point in time, there is no way in hell I would go back. I want to forget that place, scratch it out of my life. The memories that we all made were great, but they are just memories and thats where Id like to keep them. Im not disowning NDA people, Im just saying that where some of you have stayed close, or wanted to see people that you havent seen in a while, I havent. I dont know why I feel this way, its just that I have moved on and that I know what is real in my life, and NDA is not necessarily part of that.
And sometimes I dont know what is real in my life, as a matter of fact most of the time I dont know whats real in my life. But I can only take things when they are handed to me and digest them as real or not. Hindsight is always 20/20. There are only a few things in my life that I know will always stay real.

so confused

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 22:21:53 GMT

I am so befuddled...about you...i dont know what to do...if only i could take back time about 8 months and I would be able to start something great...but instead Ive waited and Im a bum...and now there is no hope...the end

Sat, 24 Jul 2004 04:50:06 GMT

When will I ever learn to never trust anyone

Thu, 22 Jul 2004 18:04:28 GMT

the most fullproof way to get a guy...according to guys...
show them your boobs...and grab their crotch all on accident!